Am I an idiot or what? I went to bed last night with the intention of getting up at 9 so I could rehearse with (the rest of) my band at 10. But my alarm wasn’t set to 9. It was set to 11. I feel so stupid! I’m still rehearsing with Robin at 1, so that’s something, but I wish we could have had time to rehearse all together… I guess we’ll just roll with it.

I have a vocal lesson at 2 as well, and then the interim task is at 6:30. I’m kind of shitting myself now… I have to do well, or I’ll never get a high mark for this module! *dies*

EDIT, 4:20 pm: So now I’m just sitting around waiting for stuff to start… 40 minutes until they begin with today’s interim tasks, assuming it’s all on time. I’m on at 6:30, if there are no huge delays. I’m nervous, but I guess it’ll be okay… Nothing left to do but hope everything will be fine, that no one will screw up or anything… Think I’ll make myself another cup of lemsip.

I’ve entered one of those really insecure phases now, where I don’t feel like I can do anything right… I’m listening to my own voice and it sounds awful, and I’m listening to my songs and they’re just terrible and boring. I feel like I’m no good. Have no self-esteem. Slightly neurotic. Just wanna go hide.

Help!