I’ve been in one since I left my job. I’m supposed to be staying on as a temp, when people are sick or something, but it’s now been almost a month and I haven’t had a single shift. Don’t know if this means they don’t want me, or that no one’s getting sick… Either way, it means that my financial situation is a little bit worse for wear.

I’ve applied for some other jobs, but so far nothing. Hoping to everything holy that someone will get back to me soon, as I’m rapidly running out of cash and not getting more till my student loan comes in on the 15th of November, and it’s only a half loan as I’m only studying part time.

But the money thing is really nothing when compared with how much I miss my kids… I think about them every day. I left saying I’d see them all again soon, and I haven’t, and it breaks my heart, because as much as I’d come to care for them, a lot of them had come to depend on me. I miss all of them, even the difficult ones. I don’t think I’m ever going to take this kind of job again, because leaving is horrible. And even if I wasn’t leaving, it would break my heart when they leave to start school and I’ll never see them again.

If I could just have a new job, and the occasional shift at work, that would be awesome.

BUT! No time to be sad and stuff now! I’m packing. Tomorrow, we’re going to San Diego, for The World Fantasy Convention! It’s gonna be awesome. The journey there is going to be ridiculously long, though. Still, it’ll be worth it. It would be worth it just for the simple fact that I’m gonna hear Neil Gaiman read. The way that man tells stories, and the way he reads, is just absolutely amazing, and I honestly can’t wait! While we’re there, we’re also going to the San Diego Zoo Safari Park, and we’re catching a gig with Amanda Palmer, which coincides (probably not coincidentally).

It’ll be my first time in the States, so I’m a bit nervous, but mostly just excited. I think we’re gonna have a lot of fun!

So, no more Miss Mopey Face. I have brand new pink hair, I’m packing my stuff and I’m off to California!